Airtime credit has been topped up, BBQ has not been used so far, even if we did have BBQ for lunch. We used the old one for this, because the new one still stinks and has to be "ausbrend", if you understand what I mean. Well, a fire has to be lit inside it so the smell goes away.
Anyway. Ditched Luischen yesterday when asked to go to a club with her (them) to celebrate her birthday. I'm just not one of those club people, I am really sorry about that. I hate to dress up just to have to dress down again after 3 hours or so. I hate being funny and hyper-friends with everyone just so I don't have to stand around in a corner until daybreak. I hate 99% of the music they air in those types of super-cool clubs.
I guess I am far too critical to be able to go out like everyone else does:
I am too critical when it comes to myself and my own appearance - I despise how I look in most of my clothes (even those I think look great on me actually only make me not want to instantly puke at the mere sight of my reflection in the mirror). I am too critical when it comes to the people I am with - I can sense immediately whether someone is honest or not and whether they are only acting up as hyper-friends so they don't have to stand around in a corner until daybreak or not. I am too critical when it comes to music - there are many kinds of music I enjoy listening to, but those are all smart kinds and I prefer listening to them in smart environments.
Clubs seem too fake a surrounding for me to be in. I am not comfortable being fake. I have never been. I prefer being honest, even if this gets me much fewer friends than most other people have. I am aware of the fact that I am a weirdo. But I'm also proud of it.
Oh yeah, and I h-a-t-e being saved by people - being helped to be normal or whatever.
Fuck that, if you guys are being normal, I'd rather be the most abnormal person on the entire planet (not that I really was)!!!
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Oh yes, Mrs H. definitly also has a "knall" and she equally hates being saved by people, can't they mind their own business?? And I equally hate those hyper-friends as well - I rather have only one real friend than a million hyper-friends if I had to choose between these two options - but luckily I don't have to do that, and I'm even more lucky to have more than one real friend... - okay, nobody will understand that anyway so I'll stop here and go to bed, had a tiring weekend and day today, time to get some sleep...
Hey tetelestai!
Long time no see! (here at least - haha, as if that wasn't my fault *g*)
I can totally understand what you were trying to say. For me personally, I would even go as far as saying "If I can't have a real friend, I don't want any friend at all." I sometimes feel, this would be the best alternative - no offense intended ;-).
Anyway, this is probably only due to the gloomly mood I've generally been in lately. (I'm not going to tell you the reason for my gloominess - 'cause it's sheepishly dumb ^^!)
I'm sorry your weekend was so tyring and I do hope you'll feel better soon :-)).
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